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1: Crazy Boys Join Forces
May. 18th, 2026 07:47 pmCh. 1: Crazy Boys Join Forces
Summary: When shit gets bad for LB, a friend of theirs steps in and changes everything.Series: Crazy Boy Diaries (personal autobio; explanation here)
Word Count: 6500
Notes: The winner of the May fan poll, and the official start of the Crazy Boy Diaries!
Content Warnings (contain spoilers!)
Content warnings for sexual assault, hallucinations, homelessness, performing sex for laundry privileges, haranguing and slapping, paranoia, self-loathing, and lots and lots of crying,
Dramatis Personae:
We are multi (AKA: multiple personalities). Here’s what you need to know for this book:
LB Folk (we share a body):
Anna: the “real” girl, the name D knows, and a creation of narrative convenience. Teenage girl.
Sneak: cheerful little superhero. Preteen.Other-Bodied (“Real”) People:
the family: our younger brother, parents, etc.
Jeff: Miranda and Anna’s shitty boyfriend. 21.
Spring, Junior Year: Rogan 
It’s before class, on the first floor by the lockers, and my little brother wants me to jerk him off.( Read more... )
Comic: GAZONGAS!
Apr. 16th, 2026 10:50 pmThis was the winner of this month's fan poll! We appreciate that in these bullshit times, we can bring you the boobs and smoochery y'all clearly so desire.
( Images behind cut! Boobs are a state of mind, really... )
( Images behind cut! Boobs are a state of mind, really... )
Enormous Old Infinity Smashed Art Dump
Apr. 8th, 2026 06:53 pmMori: Okay, I kicked Rogan's dilapidated ass off the front and unlocked a lot of our old-as-dirt DeviantArt archive, which was started back in 2003. (We started this project weeks ago, all because we wanted to unearth the twenty-two-year-old fanart we did of Sam Kieth's Zero Girl in honor of Kieth's passing. Rest in peace, old man!)
( Said fanart behind the cut! Seriously, if you want to give someone credit for giving us the idea of making comics, credit Sam Kieth. )
I also took the opportunity to hork up a huge chunk of old-as-dirt Infinity Smashed art and upload it to archive.org. It's about 160 pieces from 1999-2011, everything from little sketches and doodles to full illustrations, all in chronological order. (I guess if folks want newer stuff all in another big dump, I could do that?) It includes the first art we ever did of me, Biff, Grey, Mac, Bob, and the only art we ever drew of Rawlin pre-2019.
Because we used to draw on enormous sheets of paper, image quality varies a LOT. (If you're dying for a better copy of some of these, feel free to ask, but...) Most of these characters, settings, and plotlines no longer exist and haven't in... shit, twenty-plus years. A lot of it has aged exactly how you'd expect.
I dunno who'd want access to our old juvenilia, but if you want it, there it is. If you want all our archive.org works, here's the list.
EDIT: sure, why not, gonna just upload some of the old doodles here.
( The newest of these sketches is sixteen years old )
( Said fanart behind the cut! Seriously, if you want to give someone credit for giving us the idea of making comics, credit Sam Kieth. )
I also took the opportunity to hork up a huge chunk of old-as-dirt Infinity Smashed art and upload it to archive.org. It's about 160 pieces from 1999-2011, everything from little sketches and doodles to full illustrations, all in chronological order. (I guess if folks want newer stuff all in another big dump, I could do that?) It includes the first art we ever did of me, Biff, Grey, Mac, Bob, and the only art we ever drew of Rawlin pre-2019.
Because we used to draw on enormous sheets of paper, image quality varies a LOT. (If you're dying for a better copy of some of these, feel free to ask, but...) Most of these characters, settings, and plotlines no longer exist and haven't in... shit, twenty-plus years. A lot of it has aged exactly how you'd expect.
I dunno who'd want access to our old juvenilia, but if you want it, there it is. If you want all our archive.org works, here's the list.
EDIT: sure, why not, gonna just upload some of the old doodles here.
( The newest of these sketches is sixteen years old )
Essay: Psychodrama and Realitymashing
Mar. 31st, 2026 05:07 pmPsychodrama and Realitymashing (by Rogan)
Series: Essay
Summary: my favorite genre that doesn't exist.
Word Count: 3114
Notes: Winner of the March 2026 fan poll! This essay builds on my previous realitymashing essay, “All Narrators are Unreliable,” and you’d be best-served reading that first. This essay is dedicated to Sam Kieth, the original champion of comics realitymashing, who died March 15th. Sam Kieth’s work on Zero Girl and the Maxx are what originally inspired us to make comics, and our work as you know it wouldn’t exist if not for him. Rest well, titan.
What is psychodrama?
One of my favorite genres, though it doesn’t formally exist as far as I know, I call psychodrama: a person working through their own (or someone else’s) mind, memory, or imagination, made into “real” places or people. (“Real,” for the purposes of this essay, means, “must be dealt with and taken seriously.”) ( Read more... )
Series: Essay
Summary: my favorite genre that doesn't exist.
Word Count: 3114
Notes: Winner of the March 2026 fan poll! This essay builds on my previous realitymashing essay, “All Narrators are Unreliable,” and you’d be best-served reading that first. This essay is dedicated to Sam Kieth, the original champion of comics realitymashing, who died March 15th. Sam Kieth’s work on Zero Girl and the Maxx are what originally inspired us to make comics, and our work as you know it wouldn’t exist if not for him. Rest well, titan.
What is psychodrama?
One of my favorite genres, though it doesn’t formally exist as far as I know, I call psychodrama: a person working through their own (or someone else’s) mind, memory, or imagination, made into “real” places or people. (“Real,” for the purposes of this essay, means, “must be dealt with and taken seriously.”) ( Read more... )
Comic: Sneak Attack!
Mar. 20th, 2026 05:32 pmWinner of the 2026 fan poll! All text under this is text-only transcription of the comic.
( No Sneaks were involved in this sneak attack. )
( No Sneaks were involved in this sneak attack. )
Book Spine Poetry
Mar. 19th, 2026 10:31 pmWe keep a little stack of books we're reading on the kitchen table and our roommates noticed that the spines lined up in amusing ways. This was accidental, but then we thought, "what if we did that... ON PURPOSE?"
And today, we trashed our room stacking books to make poems. We hope they amuse you!
And today, we trashed our room stacking books to make poems. We hope they amuse you!
Comic: Barred from Pokemon Forever
Feb. 21st, 2026 09:21 pmThis is the winner of the comics/art poll this month! Please enjoy this goofiness... and for added bonus, I'll add the sketch as well!
This was a silly 2016 cooldown sketch from back when I did livestreams. (I have been saying for years that I'd like to start doing them again, but sorry y'all, our art program just doesn't work on Linux. We haven't been able to do digital art on this comp reliably since we got it in Thanksgiving.)
This was a silly 2016 cooldown sketch from back when I did livestreams. (I have been saying for years that I'd like to start doing them again, but sorry y'all, our art program just doesn't work on Linux. We haven't been able to do digital art on this comp reliably since we got it in Thanksgiving.)
Autobio: Crazy Boys Get Money
Feb. 5th, 2026 12:15 amCrazy Boys Get Money (D Stories)
Summary: Two teens in Texas hook and heist their way out of danger. True story.
Series: LB autobio (D Stories)
Word Count: 8100
Notes: Winner by a long shot of the February fan poll. Depending on how this story is received, I’ll be pulling out more regarding this period of my life, a series called “the D Stories.” Normally I would break it into 3 installments, but due to the nature of the content, I have chosen to upload it all at once. I feel professionally obligated to disclaim that this story is not appropriate for anyone under 18… but this was my life when I was younger than that, and it's both insulting and degrading to say that my youth is unspeakable to the very age demographic it happens to.
Content warnings for anti-black racism; coerced, underaged, bad sex work, and (separate) consensual, okay teenage sex, along with the circumstances surrounding both. More information is in the comments.
( I suck him like a hospital Hoover sucking shit off a bathroom floor. )
Summary: Two teens in Texas hook and heist their way out of danger. True story.
Series: LB autobio (D Stories)
Word Count: 8100
Notes: Winner by a long shot of the February fan poll. Depending on how this story is received, I’ll be pulling out more regarding this period of my life, a series called “the D Stories.” Normally I would break it into 3 installments, but due to the nature of the content, I have chosen to upload it all at once. I feel professionally obligated to disclaim that this story is not appropriate for anyone under 18… but this was my life when I was younger than that, and it's both insulting and degrading to say that my youth is unspeakable to the very age demographic it happens to.
Content warnings for anti-black racism; coerced, underaged, bad sex work, and (separate) consensual, okay teenage sex, along with the circumstances surrounding both. More information is in the comments.
( I suck him like a hospital Hoover sucking shit off a bathroom floor. )
Anatomy of a Dance
Summary: Group defenses and deeper, more intimate headspace work... or, as Spider Robinson puts it, "work[ing] very hard at hosing all the bullshit out of your head so that it’s clean enough for guests."
Series: Essays (Headspace Discovery and Defense)
Word Count: 4000
Notes: Winner of the December 2025 fan poll! This essay builds on “Headspace Discovery and Defense” and you should definitely read that first (and preferably “Building Headspace: Aphantasia Edition” too). This essay was overwhelmingly written by Rawlin and Rogan.
In “Headspace Discovery and Defense,” we mostly discussed defenses created by individuals. This one is about more advanced work: group defenses and dances.
( This kinda stuff can break some people, so please proceed with caution! )
Summary: Group defenses and deeper, more intimate headspace work... or, as Spider Robinson puts it, "work[ing] very hard at hosing all the bullshit out of your head so that it’s clean enough for guests."
Series: Essays (Headspace Discovery and Defense)
Word Count: 4000
Notes: Winner of the December 2025 fan poll! This essay builds on “Headspace Discovery and Defense” and you should definitely read that first (and preferably “Building Headspace: Aphantasia Edition” too). This essay was overwhelmingly written by Rawlin and Rogan.
In “Headspace Discovery and Defense,” we mostly discussed defenses created by individuals. This one is about more advanced work: group defenses and dances.
( This kinda stuff can break some people, so please proceed with caution! )
Many-Selved Family Portraiture
Nov. 30th, 2025 11:14 pmOkay. It's still November for 45 more minutes, so I'm still technically within deadline for this! (Our desktop broke. Those posts you've seen the past week were made on a broken old smartphone. Today I got a new desktop and frantically tried to finally get up the Patreon writing I've owed y'all all month.)
Many-Selved Family Portraiture has been uploaded to archive.org, in textual transcript form (of what I originally hoped to make, and then due to technical lack of savvy had to cut down), plus the 78 slides. The files are big!
I swear I will upload them to hm.com later. I am so tired.
EDIT: the alt-text apparently didn't export to EPUB and was lost in the save. -_- I'm sorry. I will have to redo it manually BUT NOT TODAY.
Many-Selved Family Portraiture has been uploaded to archive.org, in textual transcript form (of what I originally hoped to make, and then due to technical lack of savvy had to cut down), plus the 78 slides. The files are big!
I swear I will upload them to hm.com later. I am so tired.
EDIT: the alt-text apparently didn't export to EPUB and was lost in the save. -_- I'm sorry. I will have to redo it manually BUT NOT TODAY.
Building Headspace 2.0 (Aphantasia edition)
Summary: “Most people, perhaps 80 percent, primarily see their parts— they interact visually. […] Between 10 and 20 percent of people almost never experience any internal visual imagery. Ironically, Dick [Richard Schwartz, the founder of Internal Family Systems] is one of these people. All of the sense modalities are ways we can experience our inner world. People feel body sensations, hear voices and sounds, see things, and experience intuition beyond normal sensory modalities. Pretty much everybody is capable of experiencing this inner world except perhaps in cases of organic brain damage, and there I am uncertain.” —Bob Falconer, the Others Within Us: Internal Family Systems, Porous Mind, and Spirit Possession, pg. 123
Series: Essay (Bootstrappery section)
Word Count: 2130
Notes: Winner of the 2025 August fan poll, supported by fans at LiberaPay and Patreon! This builds on ideas in Building Headspace and Headspace Discovery and Defense, but it can be read on its own.
We’ve gotten a bunch of comments on our headspace essays that boil down to, “I have aphantasia; what do I do?” Well, I’m Rogan, I made a lot of those essays, and go figure, turns out I have aphantasia, so let’s take the bull by the horns!
( Read more... )
Summary: “Most people, perhaps 80 percent, primarily see their parts— they interact visually. […] Between 10 and 20 percent of people almost never experience any internal visual imagery. Ironically, Dick [Richard Schwartz, the founder of Internal Family Systems] is one of these people. All of the sense modalities are ways we can experience our inner world. People feel body sensations, hear voices and sounds, see things, and experience intuition beyond normal sensory modalities. Pretty much everybody is capable of experiencing this inner world except perhaps in cases of organic brain damage, and there I am uncertain.” —Bob Falconer, the Others Within Us: Internal Family Systems, Porous Mind, and Spirit Possession, pg. 123
Series: Essay (Bootstrappery section)
Word Count: 2130
Notes: Winner of the 2025 August fan poll, supported by fans at LiberaPay and Patreon! This builds on ideas in Building Headspace and Headspace Discovery and Defense, but it can be read on its own.
We’ve gotten a bunch of comments on our headspace essays that boil down to, “I have aphantasia; what do I do?” Well, I’m Rogan, I made a lot of those essays, and go figure, turns out I have aphantasia, so let’s take the bull by the horns!
( Read more... )
The Hands of a Dozen Strangers: My Experience at a Compassionate Touch Workshop
Summary: “Loving, consensual touch can be a deliberate religious practice.” —Christine Hoff Kraemer, Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, pg. 122.
Series: Essay
Word Count: 2700
Notes: Winner of the LiberaPay/Patreon fan poll! A lot of these ideas I originally got from Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, especially chapters 1: “Divided for Love’s Sake: An Erotic Cosmology” and 4: “the Sacrament of Touch.” The author has generously uploaded it to archive.org; check it out!
Unsurprisingly to anyone familiar with my history, I (Rogan of LB) have trouble being physically close to people. So what was I doing going to a compassionate touch workshop in a mysterious half-renovated warehouse with a dozen strangers, most of them men? Well, I wanted a change. I wanted to change.
( Read more... )
Summary: “Loving, consensual touch can be a deliberate religious practice.” —Christine Hoff Kraemer, Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, pg. 122.
Series: Essay
Word Count: 2700
Notes: Winner of the LiberaPay/Patreon fan poll! A lot of these ideas I originally got from Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, especially chapters 1: “Divided for Love’s Sake: An Erotic Cosmology” and 4: “the Sacrament of Touch.” The author has generously uploaded it to archive.org; check it out!
Unsurprisingly to anyone familiar with my history, I (Rogan of LB) have trouble being physically close to people. So what was I doing going to a compassionate touch workshop in a mysterious half-renovated warehouse with a dozen strangers, most of them men? Well, I wanted a change. I wanted to change.
( Read more... )
Comic: Red Tape Hell, 2015
Jul. 30th, 2025 01:07 pmWow, y'all really stepped up for the banned book sale. Y'all sure showed me! Much gratitude to all y'all; with fans like you, I am truly blessed.
This was the winner of the fan poll and paid for by supporters at LiberaPay and Patreon! Originally printed in 2015 for the floppy copies of All In the Family #3, they were cut from the final paperback version. Now they live again!
Text-only transcript in the comments below!
( every legally disabled person has a story like this )
This was the winner of the fan poll and paid for by supporters at LiberaPay and Patreon! Originally printed in 2015 for the floppy copies of All In the Family #3, they were cut from the final paperback version. Now they live again!
Text-only transcript in the comments below!
( every legally disabled person has a story like this )
Rogan: Hey guys! I felt so crummy about missing out on all the Pride business opportunities this month that I've decided to throw a special art commission thing for the next month: The Queer Canoodling Commission Special!
I will draw your headmates, OCs, etc. kissing, cuddling, and kanoodling, in a limited palette of the pride or system colors of your choice! $30 for two figures, $50 for three, other options available if you ask. Unlike my normal (more expensive) commissions, these come with zero rounds of edits unless I decide I've made a mistake. What you get is what you get.
Some examples! (If nothing else, this can be an excuse to post rainbow pics of us being sappy together!)
( There's room for everyone under this rainbow! )
Interested? DM us, email us, or leave a comment (anon comments are turned on, so no Dreamwidth account is required)!
I will draw your headmates, OCs, etc. kissing, cuddling, and kanoodling, in a limited palette of the pride or system colors of your choice! $30 for two figures, $50 for three, other options available if you ask. Unlike my normal (more expensive) commissions, these come with zero rounds of edits unless I decide I've made a mistake. What you get is what you get.
Some examples! (If nothing else, this can be an excuse to post rainbow pics of us being sappy together!)
( There's room for everyone under this rainbow! )
Interested? DM us, email us, or leave a comment (anon comments are turned on, so no Dreamwidth account is required)!
Killing God is a Skill Issue
Jun. 13th, 2025 08:14 pmOriginal posts by Phosphor of Hungry Ghosts here, used with permission: https://nightfeather.cafe/notice/AuOng8NknA7IRvgusi
Crisis Planning: Legal/Medical Stuff
Jun. 9th, 2025 02:05 pmCrisis Planning: Legal Stuff: Wills, Organ/Body Donations, and DNR/MOLST/POLST Forms
Series: Essay (Crisis Planning)
Summary: A guide to living wills, health care agents, organ/body donations, and DNR/MOLST/POLST forms (i.e., how to make sure you get the care you want and not the stuff you don't when you're unable to make your desires known).
Notes: Winner of the fan poll this month! If you want to support my work, join LiberaPay or Patreon and get double-weight for your votes. Also, these crisis plan essays have proven so popular (and regrettably necessary) that we have made a whole ebook of them up for sale for $5 here.
Nobody likes to think about this stuff, but seriously, think it over, especially if any of the following is a concern of yours:
• Ending up under the care of your abusers if medically incapacitated.
• Being denied medical care you need, leading to your “merciful” death.
• Making sure your loved ones know what to do if you’re in a coma.
• Donating your body to science.
( Read more... )
( Citations )
Series: Essay (Crisis Planning)
Summary: A guide to living wills, health care agents, organ/body donations, and DNR/MOLST/POLST forms (i.e., how to make sure you get the care you want and not the stuff you don't when you're unable to make your desires known).
Notes: Winner of the fan poll this month! If you want to support my work, join LiberaPay or Patreon and get double-weight for your votes. Also, these crisis plan essays have proven so popular (and regrettably necessary) that we have made a whole ebook of them up for sale for $5 here.
Nobody likes to think about this stuff, but seriously, think it over, especially if any of the following is a concern of yours:
• Ending up under the care of your abusers if medically incapacitated.
• Being denied medical care you need, leading to your “merciful” death.
• Making sure your loved ones know what to do if you’re in a coma.
• Donating your body to science.
( Read more... )
( Citations )
Rogan: I love drawing handwraps, they're so aesthetically appealing, but it's also tricky to find good reference for them! Fortunately, the largest, HEAVIEST book I own is Howard Schatz's At the Fights, an ENORMOUS photobook of boxers. I regret the Brobdignagian size of the thing (and the WEIGHT, oof, that book must weight close to ten pounds) but I had fun pulling it out for reference sketches on this month's Patreon postcards...
( pic behind cut! )
( pic behind cut! )
