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Rogan: By the way, I chose to go public about all this because it seems a safe bet that at least a few people who will read it do, in fact, believe or have made public statements that people like me are child molesters, despite the obvious difference between raping kids and consensual sex between adults.
So on the one hand, I hope reading about the consequences of such shit will help those people reassess.
On the other, I despise being put on a pedestal as "one of the good multis." I loathe being used as a beating stick on others or as some sort of magic charm to avoid the necessary work of self-reflection and critical thinking, all based on a sanitized, incorrect image of who I am and what I do. This seems one of the most expedient ways to help destroy that image.
I keep wanting to go back and edit, try and express myself better, more cleanly, but the fact was: my roomy saw me as a child molester, so I had to move out extremely quickly, and now I'm likely to be paying a couple thousand in double rent and utilities. This roomy was not the right-wing fundy straight person people imagine in such situations; they were a leftist trans queer kinkster. They were, in fact, almost exactly the sort of demographic that used to follow me on tumblr, respecting me in public but loathing what I did in private.
And I am so angry about all of it.
Rogan: By the way, I chose to go public about all this because it seems a safe bet that at least a few people who will read it do, in fact, believe or have made public statements that people like me are child molesters, despite the obvious difference between raping kids and consensual sex between adults.
So on the one hand, I hope reading about the consequences of such shit will help those people reassess.
On the other, I despise being put on a pedestal as "one of the good multis." I loathe being used as a beating stick on others or as some sort of magic charm to avoid the necessary work of self-reflection and critical thinking, all based on a sanitized, incorrect image of who I am and what I do. This seems one of the most expedient ways to help destroy that image.
I keep wanting to go back and edit, try and express myself better, more cleanly, but the fact was: my roomy saw me as a child molester, so I had to move out extremely quickly, and now I'm likely to be paying a couple thousand in double rent and utilities. This roomy was not the right-wing fundy straight person people imagine in such situations; they were a leftist trans queer kinkster. They were, in fact, almost exactly the sort of demographic that used to follow me on tumblr, respecting me in public but loathing what I did in private.
And I am so angry about all of it.
Alas!
But thinking about it, I'm not surprised. Communities that used to be mellow and tolerant -- the left, queers, fans, Pagans -- have become so judgmental and often vicious.
Re: Alas!
Re: Alas!
I'm doing all I can do describe places that are better. People love reading about that. Sometimes they pick up ideas from my work and deploy them, like creating a quiet room or emotional first aid kit, which makes me very happy.
I write fantasy. And what do people fantasize about? Families who don't hurt each other, doctors who listen, jobs that make enough to live on. It makes local-Earth look pretty pathetic.