It's a relief to know other folks feel similarly, Ahri! I feel ashamed of having these emotions; it makes me feel like a selfish child, you know?
In our case, we are weird in that we see death as not necessarily a bad thing. There are good deaths and bad deaths, deaths that can be kind and the best for everyone. But we're a walking graveyard and not normal in that respect! And rare is the good death that isn't kindly chosen!
There's also the fact that our selves are not in isolation. Our selves are at least somewhat defined by their relationships, which becoming singlet would totally upend. Rogan's marriage: gone! At one time, we thought Miranda might go away, and while it proved a false alarm, a singlet friend years later confessed that they were glad she stuck around, that they would've mussed her even if it was for the best. They hadn't said anything because they didn't want to get in the way of our choice, which was very kind of them. Different ones of us have different relationships, and while all relationships grow and change, that's a LOT of change to go through, all at once. Part of the brutality of being forced to play singlet is denying our selves the honest relationships that help give them form!
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Date: 2023-01-11 03:32 am (UTC)In our case, we are weird in that we see death as not necessarily a bad thing. There are good deaths and bad deaths, deaths that can be kind and the best for everyone. But we're a walking graveyard and not normal in that respect! And rare is the good death that isn't kindly chosen!
There's also the fact that our selves are not in isolation. Our selves are at least somewhat defined by their relationships, which becoming singlet would totally upend. Rogan's marriage: gone! At one time, we thought Miranda might go away, and while it proved a false alarm, a singlet friend years later confessed that they were glad she stuck around, that they would've mussed her even if it was for the best. They hadn't said anything because they didn't want to get in the way of our choice, which was very kind of them. Different ones of us have different relationships, and while all relationships grow and change, that's a LOT of change to go through, all at once. Part of the brutality of being forced to play singlet is denying our selves the honest relationships that help give them form!