I think I've been doing this kind of accidentally! I'm a singlet, but I've absolutely had a proclivity towards using internal symbolism to self-reckon. Lately I'm big into recorded meditations to help fall asleep at night, and my favourite has become one that spends an hour and a half walking you through your chakra system as a series of gardens. (I'm not big into the idea of chakras, necessarily, but I am big into systems that allow me to tackle things granularly.)
Lately I've been noticing that these spaces, when I go to them, can tell me things. The hotspings in the orange garden are sometimes clogged from something upstream. The vegetable garden has, a couple times, been in full late November mode. Stuff like that, which in some cases I can track down the source of, others are a bit more opaque. (The fall garden was exhaustion, the clog I'm still not sure of and comes back now and then.) It's amazing to be able to go to these places and get the sense that I'm being asked to pay attention, whether I can track down the problem immediately or not.
"Gardens" has also become somewhat a loose definition -- one is a big, open field; one is a dense forest. The problem is I tend to fall asleep about the time I reach the fourth garden, so I've never consciously been to the rest of them.
Thank you for writing this post -- I think I might try some of that defense-building. Me as just myself, I find that when things go bad internally I go into shutdown rather than chaos, though, so I might try something with a bit of a resource-building bent to it? I'm not sure -- have you guys had cases where the issue was enervation or a freeze-reaction rather than bombardment?
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Date: 2019-10-05 06:53 pm (UTC)Lately I've been noticing that these spaces, when I go to them, can tell me things. The hotspings in the orange garden are sometimes clogged from something upstream. The vegetable garden has, a couple times, been in full late November mode. Stuff like that, which in some cases I can track down the source of, others are a bit more opaque. (The fall garden was exhaustion, the clog I'm still not sure of and comes back now and then.) It's amazing to be able to go to these places and get the sense that I'm being asked to pay attention, whether I can track down the problem immediately or not.
"Gardens" has also become somewhat a loose definition -- one is a big, open field; one is a dense forest. The problem is I tend to fall asleep about the time I reach the fourth garden, so I've never consciously been to the rest of them.
Thank you for writing this post -- I think I might try some of that defense-building. Me as just myself, I find that when things go bad internally I go into shutdown rather than chaos, though, so I might try something with a bit of a resource-building bent to it? I'm not sure -- have you guys had cases where the issue was enervation or a freeze-reaction rather than bombardment?