The concept does seem like what would be actually upsetting, yeah. I just followed the rules, I don't think we understood them :P The thing y'all mentioned recently with going to the mental health convention where everyone just self-soothed and nothing else? asdis was a lot like that a lot of the time.
alt.suicide.holiday was originally founded 'to talk about the increase in suicides around the holiday season' and as far as I'm aware pretty rapidly just turned into 'the newsgroup for suicidal people'. There's an archive of a website that archives a lot of the early writings there from when it was actually a community, that meant a lot to me as a young teenager. The main prevailing theme was that it was a 'right to die' community, with people insisting that if they wanted to kill themselves they should be able to. It probably was not an ideal place for a thirteen year old to imprint on.
I've moved both houses and computers so many times in the last few years that I'm just not sure where stuff is! I remember what a sketchbook that had a system list in it looked like, but damned if I know where in the house it is. We pulled most every blog we could still log into off the internet when the stalker stuff happened, and theoretically we have archives of them, but I'm not sure which drive they're on or where the cables for our oldest functional external hard drive are. Et cetera :P Mostly what I can find is documentation of people I didn't forget, heh. (It's distantly possible y'all may recall us from our previous usernames, we followed you on tumblr and occasionally interacted. Here's a way to keep it ungoogleable, I'll rot13 my original name and the system name: Fuvlvln, sebz gur Fbangn Flfgrz. Also possible we were shy enough not to be notable!)
Not sure where to put this incoherent history I've drafted now. I'm somewhat disinclined to put it on my own dw because I've developed something of a complex about talking about it in public since a psychiatrist declined to treat me because I was 'too complicated'. Shall I just drop it in a comment here?
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alt.suicide.holiday was originally founded 'to talk about the increase in suicides around the holiday season' and as far as I'm aware pretty rapidly just turned into 'the newsgroup for suicidal people'. There's an archive of a website that archives a lot of the early writings there from when it was actually a community, that meant a lot to me as a young teenager. The main prevailing theme was that it was a 'right to die' community, with people insisting that if they wanted to kill themselves they should be able to. It probably was not an ideal place for a thirteen year old to imprint on.
I've moved both houses and computers so many times in the last few years that I'm just not sure where stuff is! I remember what a sketchbook that had a system list in it looked like, but damned if I know where in the house it is. We pulled most every blog we could still log into off the internet when the stalker stuff happened, and theoretically we have archives of them, but I'm not sure which drive they're on or where the cables for our oldest functional external hard drive are. Et cetera :P Mostly what I can find is documentation of people I didn't forget, heh. (It's distantly possible y'all may recall us from our previous usernames, we followed you on tumblr and occasionally interacted. Here's a way to keep it ungoogleable, I'll rot13 my original name and the system name: Fuvlvln, sebz gur Fbangn Flfgrz. Also possible we were shy enough not to be notable!)
Not sure where to put this incoherent history I've drafted now. I'm somewhat disinclined to put it on my own dw because I've developed something of a complex about talking about it in public since a psychiatrist declined to treat me because I was 'too complicated'. Shall I just drop it in a comment here?